What day is it again??

Ok so I've been pretty busy this week and haven't had a chance to blog. Work has been hectic, my babies are busy, and I've even started a new business venture ( to be announced soon). Not to mention church and ministry. I have managed to continue with the fast, however, I devoured four (yes 4) tacos during lunch yesterday. It wasn't an accident. I did not temporarily forget about the fast. A coworker offered to buy me lunch and I intentionally ordered two chicken and two carne asada tacos with EVERYTHING on them! I am regretful but I enjoyed them. I vowed to start fresh today and finish this last week strong! The first week was full of peace and clarity from God. This second week I have felt under attack. I've been overwhelmed with work and my kids and have felt somewhat alone. I know these are all lies from the enemy and I had to really spend time with God and get my mind and soul back on track. So I'm doing better. This last week I'm asking for even more clarity and more of his presence. 

Peace

If I am frustrated or upset about a situation in my life, I remember to pause, take a deep breath, and focus on harmony and understanding. My life is smoother when I come from a place of inner peace. As I deepen my daily prayer practice, I am more able to respond in peaceful, loving ways. 

I create a ripple of peace and understanding through my actions and attitude. My peaceful, cooperative, and kind outlook gently influences those around me to be more peaceful, cooperative, and kind.

My shift in consciousness extends beyond my community to my country, continent, and the world. I envision our planet filled with peace, harmony, understanding, cooperation, and kindness

Those of steadfast mind you keep in peace- in peace because they trust in you. -Isaiah 26:3

Day 2 (sort of)

So it's "sort of" day 2 because at church today pastor made it clear that the fast includes no meat at all. So after 6pm when I'm able to eat, I am not to eat meat. If you remember, yesterday I had gumbo! So today I did not have meat in my meal. Today's reading was Acts 20:24 "However, I consider my life worth nothing to me, my only aim is to finish the race and complete the task of testifying to the good news of God's grace." This really spoke to me. I can get so caught up in my issues and everyday stress. This made me stop and realize that the things of this life are not important. I should be working and serving everyday for God's kingdom because the real reward is in heaven. 

I had to check myself today because I allowed myself to get irritated and I had an attitude. I had to forgive someone again and they don't even know it. I was bothered and had to pray and ask God to forgive me. I needed compassion and asked for God to help me see that person the way he does so that I could love them. I'm really trying to be better all around. I'm still working on some things though.

Day 1

Day 1 of the fast is almost complete. It was a very easy day but the tests started early. I currently reside with my grandparents and my papa made his famous pancakes this morning and my grandmother  is cooking gumbo now. I can have a small bowl of gumbo after 6pm but the aroma has filled the house for a couple of hours now.

The first week of the fast is focused on families. Our scripture for today is 2 Peter 1:5-7 "For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; and to godliness, mutual affection; and to mutual affection, love."

Today the kids and I were able to stay in for once without a bunch of plans causing us to run around town. It has been very relaxing. We prayed together, read our bibles (we are reading James), we cleaned the house and washed clothes in preparation for our return to work and school on Monday. We will have prayer again tonight. So I would say that we are off to a very good start. God has already spoken by telling me to read James. The first two chapters says a lot in itself. I am learning through this reading to humble myself through trials, to not doubt God, to be slow to speak and quick to listen (major one for me), to be slow to get angry, and that faith without action is dead! To God be the glory!

2016!!!!

Happy New Year!!!! I am so grateful that I made it through another year! No day is promised and to make it another year with my health, my children, my family, my friends and my peace of mind is a blessing! 2015 was pretty rough. However, I learned a lot about myself and I've grown spiritually. I truly believe that this is my season. And honestly I know most people say this is their year every New Years. However, this time last year, I knew it wasn't my year! I knew I was in for a long ride. But I made it! I'm still not where I want to be but I'm closer. And I'm grateful for the lessons learned. I have made the choice to not complain about my circumstances and trust that God is working it all out for my good. This is my season and I'm excited! 

What better way to start the year than with a fast!? My church is doing a 21 day fast starting tomorrow. Now let me be honest, I have never been successful at a fast more than a couple of days. I'm giving this one my all. I need to go deeper in my relationship with God and I'm seeking him for some clear direction. I know that if I totally consecrate myself he will show up in a mighty way and I desperately need him. I will blog about my fast for the next 21 days. It's sort of my way of holding myself accountable. And prayerfully my experience can encourage others. I am doing a regular fast where I will have no food and just water from 6am-6pm. After 6pm I will eat a light meal. My children are fasting from junk food, only drinking water, and no television.  They're actually excited except for the tv part. But through prayer time together and worship, I know God will move in our lives! So here goes.... Day 1 starts in the morning!

PS... I am always very open and honest but some things will be left between myself and God.